Tomorrow is my last first day. Tomorrow starts what I’ve been working towards my whole life. Tomorrow is the beginning of the end. Tomorrow begins my last first nine weeks, my last first semester. Tomorrow is the first day of my senior year of high school.
I think that I am more nervous about tomorrow than I was my first day of freshman year. I remember that day like it was yesterday. I was wearing a blue and white stripped tank top with a red tank top under it and white jeans. Shelby Price drove me and a few friends to school. We planned out the time perfectly to hopefully get there when we wouldn’t get attacked by seniors with silly string and sticky notes. My first class wasn’t in the freshman building, so as we walked onto campus, I was forced to part ways with my friends – my comfort zone. I was forced to step out on faith in God. I don’t think I had ever been more nervous for a first day of school… until now.
As I pray today that God eases my nerves (and I know that He will), I am trying to figure out where the nervous are coming from. I don’t think that they are simply just because of the first day of school, but rather from what comes after this last first day. I will be taking the hardest classes offered at Tupelo High School, taking on the most challenging challenges, and trying to be a light for Christ in my high school of 2,000 students. I have only one year left in the biggest mission field I will ever be in. I have a lot of work to do.
With this blog, I want to share with you a few goals that I have for this year:
I want to graduate. It’s that simple. I have only 2 more semesters left in high school, and my goal is just to make it. I want to hear my name called as I walk across that stage at the Bancorpsouth Arena on May 20th.
- Make new friends!
I know it’s crazy to think that I could make new friends in the 12th grade, but I know that there are so many awesome people in my grade at school that I have never even met before! I’ve heard that at graduation practice you see people that you have never seen before in your life, so I know that there are people out there that I can become friends with this year. I guess this is a downfall of going to the biggest (and best) high school in the state.
- Make a difference! Leave a mark somewhere!
I want to be super involved even if it is just with on program. In 5-10 years, I want someone to say, “Oh.. Bailie White implemented that a few years back.” I want to make a difference and really leave my mark at Tupelo High.
- Be a mentor! Help out an underclassman!
I would absolutely LOVE to get close to an underclassman and help them along the way! I have had so many upperclassmen to look up to, and I want to pay it forward.
- Be a leader in my youth group!
I love all of the awesome people in my youth group, but I want them to know that they can always count on me and trust me. I want to start different things that they can carry on when I graduate. I want to be that outgoing leader, but mostly I want to lead by example. I want them to know that it’s OKAY to not go to the dance or the party. You are still human if you don’t go to those things. But I also want to the be the person that they call when they need a distraction – a way out of something that they shouldn’t go to. I would LOVE to be that person for every single person in my youth group.
- I want to talk about Jesus.. give Him the glory for everything in my normal day to day conversations/
I want to talk about Him so much that people ask me, “Bailie, who is this Jesus you talk about everyday?” I want to be able to just talk about how much He has done for me every single day in a conversation.
- I don’t want to worry!
Worrying is the #1 hardest thing that I deal with. I worry about stuff that won’t even ever happen. I worry about literally.. EVERYTHING. And I don’t want to worry anymore. The last few verses of Matthew 6 are all about not worrying. I am so thankful that we studied that chapter at Maywood a few weeks ago. I pray that I just trust in Him instead of worrying all the time.
Now that I have shared with you my goals for this, my senior year, I ask you to hold me accountable for them. I really want to accomplish these goals, and I only have 36 weeks to do it. Maybe you can use these goals for your school year, too!
I’m praying for each and every student and teacher that will return to school this week or in the next couple of weeks. I pray that God is glorified through everything you do, and that you are a light to everyone around you.
“But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you. Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient is the day for its own trouble.” – Matthew 6:33-34