My last night with the Buford Church of Christ was Wednesday night, and I cried a lot (shocker haha). I am going to miss that sweet congregation SO MUCH. They are truly lights in this dark world, but I am so thankful to be able to call all of them close family now.
Today, I leave for my JUNIOR year at Freed-Hardeman. It’s so hard to believe. But, I want to take a moment and pause. Pause and reflect on this past summer and all of the awesome experiences I had – Good, bad, stressful, sad, exciting – all of it.
Some days were hard this summer. On these days there was usually a “reminder moment” that pulled me back in and reminded why I was doing what I was doing. One of these moments was at our middle school girls sleepover We sang in a hot tub, jammed so hard to Taylor Swift, and finished singing praises to our Lord. Even though it was just a few of us. It was one of those little moments that just reminded me that these girls just need to see His love. Their heart is longing for it and searching for it.
Some weeks were so busy. Some days I would leave the house at 8:30 in the morning and not get home until 9 or 10 at night. These days were hard to recover from because they were so busy.
Some days where challenging when I had a Bible class I needed to get written but I couldn’t put my finger on exactly what I wanted to say. On days like this I could spend all morning trying to get my creative juices in my brain flowing, and then once they finally started flowing – it was time for lunch.
Some days, however, were very good. I would sit down at my desk and immediately get so much done in the mornings. I always felt so productive the weeks we got to spend with the kids like work week, camp week, camp outreach week – because I was really able to form those relationships that, Lord-Willing, will last a lifetime and into eternity.
I loved the weekends where I could just sit on the porch and work on school work or Bible classes and watch the horses. This was my favorite way to wind down a busy week or busy day.
As I pause and look back on the summer, I realize that I need to look further back and be so thankful of how I got to this point.
My good friend, Emma Butt, pushed me and pushed me to interview for the internship in Buford. I was so hesitant. I almost didn’t interview, but I did. With some encouragement from my roommates that it would be such an awesome opportunity to step out on my faith and out of my comfort zone, I agreed to take the job – even though my parents were hesitant. This was very far away from home and not like anything I had ever undertaken before – I was very much trusting that God would help me through this summer. And He did just that – and then some.
Looking forward to May of this year, I knew that this summer was going to be a challenge, but I didn’t know just how much it was going to be. Ben Coleman and I were sitting in the library and came up with this semester’s theme for our social club at FHU, and I bet you’ll never guess what it is – BORDERLESS TRUST.
God knew back in September when I interviewed for the Buford internship that this semester I would be leading the girls in my club and God would use me to show them how to have Borderless Trust – but up until this summer I had never really fully had borderless trust in Him, myself. So this was such an important lesson for me to learn before I taught this to others. Although I still have so much to learn about trusting Him, I’m so thankful for the experience I had in Georgia this summer.
As I pause today, I also look forward to this semester. I look forward to seeing the girls in my club look to Jesus and taking that step onto the water and trusting in Him. I look forward to being together again with my Xi Chi brothers and sisters. I just look forward to being together again with my FHU family.
With the very next words of love to be spoken
To the very next heart that's shattered and broken
To the very next way you're gonna use me
Show me the next thing
I'll do the next thing
Eyes wide open I see you working
All around me you're on the move
Step by step I'm running to meet you
In the next thing, in the next thing
- The Very Next Thing; by: Casting Crowns